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When YouTuber fight, or more specific if YouTuber you like fight, it can feel like part of your friends group is fighting. And I am aware that that might sound mental for some and I guess I wouldn’t say I am a 100% allowed to feel this way but it’s just true. This of course has to do with the kind of new and more ‘intimate’ relationship between YouTuber and subscriber, that is (in my opinion) often very different from the relationship between a ‘classic’ celebrity and their fans. But let’s be honest, everything has to do with that. I’m not saying that it is right to feel like that and I think that subscriber should be more aware sometimes that they are in fact not the friend of a YouTuber and that they only see the parts of their life, the person wants to show them. That said I still believe that YouTuber should be aware that many subscriber can’t keep the distance like that, and that if they make anything (no matter how small or irrelevant it may seem to them) public it has an effect. People might take it to serious, but don’t always blame them for that, remember: you know everything, they just the little bits that got published. You might talked about the thing with the person you indirect address in the video or tweet, but we don’t know that if you haven’t specifically said it.
And you could have already guessed: I have a reason to talk about this now. A few days, or weeks, ago Daniel J Layton uploaded a video that had a snowball effect he probably couldn’t have suspected at the time. It ‘ended’ in a video (and here’s the part I could be completely wrong but remember I only will know and interpret the stuff that is public) Evan Edinger uploaded where he doesn’t name names but it’s really obvious directed to the stuff happening before. If you haven’t seen any of the stuff or didn’t see that connection, go on stop reading, it’s easier. People might say: Why the hell are you addressing this if you don’t like the topic. Well dear friend because not addressing it vs. addressing it is part of the topic.
Daniel talked in said video about how he got insecure about his videos, more specifically his sitting down talky vlogs. He said that for him a YouTube video he makes has to have a meaning or he mainly said that he wants to be proud of what he makes. He continues saying that making a video for him stopped feeling natural but instead felt “forced” and “stale” and he felt like he hadn’t had anything new to say. So he decided to make a new concept and that ended with him not uploading at all. The video (I think) was really self-concerted and I never felt like he was addressing anyone but his own problems. And having a creative block out of doubt and feeling you should only do good stuff, is really normal for someone doing creative stuff and being passionate about it. I mean, there’s a reason artist sometimes don’t touch a pencil in weeks or musicians not writing anything or even playing. And for fucks sake there is a reason I haven’t started writing that one good idea into something yet. And some YouTuber might not see their content the same way, some might not consider it a form of artmaking, but some do and I think that both ways are totally fine. Sadly this is where the problem starts: some people don’t feel the same way as I do and actually that’s still not a problem, but if they say it out loud publicly it becomes problematic. Yes, I used that word: oh no, your fave is problematic. (Also to clarify: your fave can, to a certain point, be problematic, because guess what?, their human)
Now Hazel jumped on board and she had a lot to say, which she absolutely can, but maybe 140 characters are not the best way to do so. You can tell that she had probably bottled up her thoughts on this topic for quite a while, because instead of just saying things like “I agree with having that feeling about my own stuff” or “He explained quite nicely why it sometimes feels hard to upload” or anything that would have just slightly attacked other YouTuber. Instead she commented harshly about content she wouldn’t upload. I think the problem here is quite clearly exactly what I was talking about before: Hazel definitely considers her videos a form of artmaking, which is totally fine, but she seems to forget that not everyone sees their YouTube videos the same way. And I feel that the vertex of what video to upload and what video not to upload it connected to how much you want and feel like have to make art. Personally I am no big fan of clickbait, or challenges (some are funny and some are even really creative but mostly not my favourite videos) but if a YouTuber makes to many of them I probably just stop watching their content (I also feel like it’s an age thing, with 16/17 I loved that kind of video), but I sometimes love the just sitting down and talk about life and the fucking universe videos, and they seem pretty pointless don’t they? Also: why do I enjoy monthly or daily vlogs (okay the answer is simply for me: I don’t have many friends, do I? but like seriously, why do people enjoy that?). So, dear Hazel, who I respect but don’t have to share an opinion with, just because we don’t like it, and you feel like they would be letting their fans and themselves down, doesn’t mean they actually feel that way, too. If they, and everyone who’s watching, is happy and totally okay with the content, it is good content. I know it can be frustrating, and believe me every time I see the number of how many “Shade of grey” books been sold I feel that frustration as well, but it doesn’t have to be as bad as you might think it is.
I’m not done yet (sadly): Bing alias Christopher Bingham joint in. He deleted now most of the tweets but they basically where saying, that YouTubers should not be so “arrogant” to judge over other YouTubers content (which would have been okay if he had the balls to address it directly to Hazel, but he didn’t). Now, bare these words in mind because he uploaded a video called “Why I Stopped Uploading”. And don’t try and tell me it’s not directed to Daniels, because it’s the exact same title. In the video he’s miming the words of Daniel, which makes it (especially if you think of the tweets) fucking disgusting. Sure I might be over reacting but if you make fun of someone being self-doubting their content you’re just a dick. Nothing else. And trying to make that into comedy makes you a fucking dickhead. So yea, you’re actually not just a dick but also a dickhead. I don’t really want to say anything more about him.
There might have been more (oh right Dan uploaded a video in which you think he will address everything but in fact it was about The Great British Bakeoff, don’t tell me that was not intentional, Dan…), but I just jump to Evan’s video, called “I’ve Got Bad News”. In which he presents, in an exaggerated way, pretty much Hazels tweets. And again, what really bothers me is that it’s indirect. Sure that way many people might not get what he (I think) is referring to but it makes it kind of be a ‘behind the back thing’. I get that he disagrees with the things Hazel has mentioned and he kind of tones it down to the “Bad content is stuff I don’t like” vibe that resonates with the tweets. However, I just feel that’s not a good way to address that: many will take it to serious and might pick sides, which will then be a problem, if they do not actually hate each other for forever now. He also picks up on Hazel saying the she sometimes doesn’t want to call herself a YouTuber anymore, and brings in his reasons why, which are really valid, but kind off just make sure you know who this is about. I would have been okay with Evan (who I also really like, by the way) just picking on what Hazel said, because she pretty much actually judge other creators content. What, however, I am 100% not okay with is that he pretty much said (and correct me if I’m wrong, but that’s how I interpret it): Don’t worry about what you upload, you’re being a bit arrogant if you are too picky (I am of course exaggerate this but that was the feeling I got out of it). And again: don’t be fucking mean about someone talking about self-doubting their content. It doesn’t matter that you don’t feel that way ever. And I think it’s brilliant, that you enjoy making videos so much, that that is simply enough reason for you to upload, Evan. That’s fucking great. But for fucks sake not everyone has to feel the same way. And Dan never criticized someone in that video but himself, so tell my why was that necessary?
So this was it: Me adding to the newest YouTube drama. I really hope I maybe could contribute something to it. And I kind of hope maybe one of the people being part of it might even read it. But now I’m just going back into writing 3 term papers about political stuff, that makes me sad, hey might write a blogpost about that as well.
All the love, Julia